Sleepless last night! Think too much until my head feel wanna blow up. I never experience this extreme pressure to myself. Woke up and make myself cup of black coffee... sitting on my cozy sofa and continue thinking. My mind is like computer with words coming through numbers and even a flash back to history on what I have done and how I should handle the situation... some with regret and some came up with sweet memory... many with sad one....Why I can't make my life simple like others? Why I need to think so much? Ah! what make me think only me busy thinking??? I believe all of us did and most of us will come to this point! All the why and why keep coming to my mind... and I realise it is already morning...ah! another day to go through... another additional day to my age...mmmmm my 40's is closing and coming nearer.... I feel I dont achieve my dream yet... Living is pretty extreme and it is no joke. After life preparation is critical because no 'u' turn and uncertain fa